steam
as I leant into a cup of tea
hit my forehead like
a blunt heavy kiss
like a coarse and hot as a
blessing I felt
it my elder
myself born myself young, I felt
like a kitten blind
under cats
tongue.
What is the thing now if not
remaking
what we forgot?
Everything is old I guess.
Words like honour, praise and bless
used to seem like pompous
aliens, now I find them in my womb
In my heart
when pressure leaves my struggle
with sincerity.
Clear,
runs water that is good to drink-
clear is air thats good to breathe.
But
fucking hell, there are so many stones.
Fucking hell, there are so many stones.
If I dont turn over each one,
how will I know, how will I know?
How will I know about love and work,
how will I know about newts and toads?
Clear runs water that is good to drink,
but fucking hell, there are so many stones.
The riverbeds stones are like
scales of snake.
The riverbed
bleeds when I pick its scabs.
I pick them until I'm compelled no more,
til I'm alone, and drawn to dive
into the cold, where
I am freed
of the ghost company I need.
Freed of this starved things deranged greed,
Here it is cold and moving fast.
Everything warm is whipped away.
I try to be so good, im seen
not by the cold,
So it might let me stay.
I wish to it that I could stay.
Why must I mess around with air?
Why must I mess around with fire?
Water is all I'll ever need.
Water I wish that I could bleed
into you til my blood is turned
into water, and nothing yearned
for any longer,
nobodies daughter.
-So Many Stones